Thursday, December 9, 2010

Something to keep me sane...

Hello everyone. Although everyone would include just me for now. Let me first start with this: I am not a writer. I am just a frustrated 23 year old who thinks I've annoyed everyone in earshot of me with my post graduate woes. So instead of whining to those around me, I'll vent to the next best thing to a best friend: a bunch of strangers on the internet.

My life on paper is pretty normal. I'm 23, from New York (Queens to be exact) and currently living in Baltimore. I graduated from Towson University in May 2009. And after May 2009 is where the point of this blog originates.

Until then, I pretty much knew how things got accomplished in my world. If I wanted something, I went out and got or earned it with hard work. Either way, my efforts always paid off and there was an obvious result of my effort (for example- I studied, I got an A. I passed my classes, I graduate college). But nowadays, my efforts are often futile and  my frustrations are at an all time high.

I'm in a job that pays the bills but leaves me with pretty much no money to save for my wedding (I'm engaged) or for a house (which has me seriously considering the idea of my mother living with my fiance and I in order to get one). Every job/internship I applied to before graduation ended with me being offered a position. Now, I'll go 6 months without hearing from a position just for them to shoot me an email saying "they went with a more suitable candidate". 

So what I want to know is how everyone older than me could let me walk into such a big ass set up? No dream job or even a foot in the door to the field of my choice? How could they let me think it was going to be as simple as it was back then? Why did they even make that simple back then?

That last paragraph was obviously not true of what I think. Although it would be nice to say I wasn't warned. But I knew it was going to be hard when I got out into the "real world'. But I didn't think I would graduate during the worst economy the US has seen since polio. And I didn't think it would be so frustrating to not know "what comes next".

All that being said, I hope this blog will be an opportunity for me to keep my sanity and a way for the maybe 7 of you that will eventually learn my struggles as I navigate this Post Grad world. 

Good thing is, I feel a little better already. 
Not me but an ode to how I spend my days...looking for a new job.